Happy New Year!!

ahhh.. another year has passed.. how time flies. year 2009 has been a great year for me. nothing biggy.. but compared to a few unfortunate events i experienced a few years back, i'm so thankful even for a tiny spark in year 2009. alhamdulillah... Allah maha mendengar dan mengasihani..


then...ahh ^^

my hubby.. err.. not so much change i guess (really?? ;P) still supportive as ever, makan pakai cukup, hardly say no to me - alhamdulillah never turned down my request or my wishlist (except for vacation.. uwaaaa ;(. penyakit ni jer aku x jumpa ubat dia lagi!!). he's neither romantic nor gentleman.. but i like him the way he is. we've been married for 12 years this year. we kissed, we fought, we drove each other crazy but shortly we made up. i'm still head over heels with that dude (shhhhhh....)

toingg!.. now. hahaah.. sampai kena cropped

sbb nk cover mana yg tak patut ;P

my girls?? hmmm an endless battle of course. arisya has grown to more feminine and tall.. so picky in her selections and unfortunately she takes a high taste in shopping from her angah v_v. she's a bit sensitive and my god i swear she has been keeping a lot of things from me (can't blame her when she got a lioness mum ;P). i can't read her mind anymore and that's so frustrating. but to my irritation, she would cry a river when her dad had a slow talk with her. when she told a lie, she was so casual and cool. such a pro.. nobody escaped me before even her dad (hahaha). a few months back i was hysterical to find out that a boy had been calling and texting her messages. a year senior than her. what drove me crazy was she was so calmed denying it. i threated her, shook her.. still she didn't spill a bean. at last i couldn't take it anymore and i did what my courteous hubby dreaded the most.. i called the boy and gave him a piece of my mind. yeah i know a bit too far but i'm so protective of my girls that i would do anything above anybody's head. only one case.. almost gimme heart attack. how? hahaha...

my bubbly arianna so far so good. eventhough she drives me crazy with her 'selamba' attitude and mischievous behaviour, she's easier to handle. ohh.. she's a mum pleaser. always try to impress me ^_^. and she did good so far in her academic. lotsa fool around and MC's but she scored with flying colours. unlike her sis (graceful but concrete hearted), she would shrink if i got angry ^_^.


Business

huhuhu.. can do lah. i started slow and small.. and errr.. now still slow and small jugak. muahahahahh ;D;D. well.. nothing much to complain. all i can say is all my life i never boomed but very satisfied alhamdulillah. sometimes i got big jobs, sometimes small. but alhamdulillah tak pernah putus. i like it low profile and never take anymore than i can digest (how i wish it applies in my diet too.. duhh). at least i'm not on loan and my credit card is clean with surplus sometimes. Allah has blessed me in 'keserdehanaan' and i like it this way alhamdulillah. maybe wealth doesn't suit me. i don't mind as long as i'm happy and content. eventhough my best friend hit the jackpot and invited me, i would say "u go girl.. i'll tag along at my own speed". u may call me idiot or maybe sombong but i know what i'm capable of. besides, when i started my freelance job, i told my hubby i just want to kill my time and help out my parents. i won't go to the extent that i would lost sight of my girls. insyallah...

looking back, i had quite a colourful year. you can't expect rainbows and roses only meh.. a few test means Allah loves you. that's why when my mum in law got sick, i'm still thankful coz my hubby appreciates me more. anyways.. god forbids should it happen again.

for next year, i only wish that i can carry out my responsibility accordingly especially to my parents. i wish mak and ayah will be blessed next year. i wish my mum will undergo umrah successfully and i wish ayah will be calmer and happy. i wish for lotsa luv in my whole family. i wish my brothers will find a good bride eventually (biar lambat asal selamat bros).

as for me, i wish to maintain a prosperous marriage, i wish arisya will fly through UPSR and.. errr the same old wish for the past 10 years... i wish to shed away more kg.. wakakakaka...

AAAMIIIINNNN....

Payback Time!

i knew it.. i knew it..! today i'm gonna get it. last saturday i received a call from my trainer "akak.. bila akak nk datang training balik ni? sebulan dah lapsed nih..".

frozen at first, stung by the familiar voice i've been dreading to hear this past few weeks (not that i'm avoiding him.. just that i don't want to feel frustrated being reminded about what i've been missing)

i blurted "ok..ok miro, next week kita resume. akak dah hantar mak kat rumah kakak. insyallah boleh"

"good.. camtu sy schedule akak time biasa ye. 8am monday, wed and friday k?" god.. those three days sounded like thirty days straight for me. i could feel the pain already.

so the next day, sunday.. i put on my fitness mood and pushed my lazy bump to work. i did a few yoga poses at 6pm. i sweat profusely with just a few basic routine. but i was still not satisfied. i knew i needed to make up big time. so after maghrib prayers, i jogged with arisya. i ignored the synical smiles of people in the neighbourhood. it may appeared unusual for them because all the makcik-makcik exercise their morning run after subuh.

i've told my hubby that that night i was going to bed early. we usually retire around 3 am everynight. but alah.. easy said than done. my hubby gatal2 invited my brother for a sleep over. dinner was late at 11:30pm. once at home i was glued to my online work. i even had a brief online meeting and discussions with my biz associate. sedar2 it was already 2:30am!! i quickly jumped into bed. but my again gatal hubby turned on sports channel. arggghhhh!!!

this morning when the alarm rang at 6:30am (i set it at 6:15am. i guess my poor neighbour had to put up with the 15minutes ringing ordeal. hehehe), i felt glued to the bed. i managed to round up the kids by 7:00am. i thought oh.. just nice. i will have time to warm-up on the threadmill for 20minutes. but again my beloved hubby did it. he took his own sweet time getting ready while whistling. ohh.. i almost shouted. when we got to the car i wanted to scream again. the petrol light was already on! fueling up cost my time again. 10 minutes to 8am i sprinted through DUKE. thank god for the highway. i reached exactly at 8:00am. while slipping into my sneakers in the fitting room suddenly i froze.. i quickly grab my handset and began texting to my trainer. "miro.. i just got here. gimme a few minutes will you.." slammed the locker door and i quickly run to..... the LOO! hahahha... sakit perut la pulak.. potong tul! well.. better get rid of all the potential distractions. we never knew what will happen on the training mat ^_^.

"selamat datang kembali kak.. lamanya x jumpa" greeted my trainer miro. i returned his smile fidgeting to see the equipments he had laid for me. as i expected it was a tough return. i always have my inhaler with me but never used it during working out. but this morning i inhaled 4 times! my god i'm so rusted.

Plank Pose
"naper ni kak.. kejap nyer plank.."

huhuhu.. i was dying in sweats and panting for air.. that was when i threw my puppy face card.

"pinggang sakit ke kak? pasal angkat mak akak ye? takper la.. kalo camtu today kita buat pelan2 dulu"

kehkehkeh.. that's why i opted for a male trainer. they may sweat you up with crazy strenuous exercise, but there's always a soft spot to hit. hehehe..

even so.. i was 'nyawa2 ikan' when it's over. even my panties all soaking wet ;P ^_^. the longest 1 hour ever. luckily after every session my trainer would skillfully massage me with a rubber roller. directly touched cannot la meh ^_^. i can heard krup krap but then ahhhhh.. so lega.. while i was walking shakily to the changing room, he said

"kak.. sebelum balik buat cardio dulu 20 minute. pas tu sauna untuk legakan sakit pinggang tu.."

uwaaaa... nak nangis aku.. so slowly i got on the threadmill and jogged for 20 minutes. almost cooked to 'well done' in the sauna coz i dozed-off for a moment. after i freshened up i stormed to Subway Sandwiches. haaa.. amik ko balas dendam.

i've already planned to sleep after zuhur. but since it's paying week, the orders were already flooding in. my aching joints already took it's toll.. so today everything i did flat on my stomach. i even wrapped parcels on my stomach to the floor ^_^. i finally managed to take a nap after the kangaroo guys collected my parcels. and of course waking up with my joints screaming in pain again...

Catching up

hohohoh.. so much for 5% blogging. argghhh.. i feel like doing quarter closing. let see.. what are the significant events happening this past few months?

• alhamdulillah busier biz
• arin flew through final exam with straight A's
• i join Celebrity Fitness
• my mum in law was warded with a shocking sugar level reading of 30
• took care of my mum in law for 3 weeks.

Hari Kecermelangan. Arin got awarded for the highest mark in a few subjects.

so now i'm trying to squeeze the remaining one week of the school break with entertaining my kids, last minute school stuff shopping and hosting relatives from singapore. don't ask me how tiring it is.

only one regret.. i missed attending the gym for a whole one month. i hope it's well compensated by the busy routine i had in the other hand such as changing my mum in law diapers (crunches), carrying her to the toilet (weight lifting) and millions other chores which kept me on my feet (cardio).

err.. now thinking about starting the classes again makes me chill. i doubt that i can bend properly in yoga class, will definitely shiver doing the planks. hmmm looks like i need my inhaler for now. hehehe..

going for a jog with my children now. chow...

Sepet

ever saw the "Eyes Wide Shut" movie? steamy scenes of Tom Cruise and Ms ex-cruisce (Nicole Kidman) ;P. well, my case is different. this morning, when i was jumped by my hubby's phone alarm (should i call it alarm? it was a soothing guitar solo by jimmy hendrix if i'm not mistaken), i found that my eyes were glued. my vision was so blurry that i thought i walked with my eyes wide shut. but after a couple of minutes i struck me. arggggggggghhhhhhh...!! sakit mata balik kerrr????!!

2 nights ago i took the kids and hubby to clinic. same-o same-o prob. sorethroat, fever and cough. i wasn't surprise to see patients filled all the seats in the waiting hall. they were in worse shapes than us. seeing them whinning and limping anxiously like sitting on a barbeque pit, i pity them and was thankful at the same that our conditions were far better.

suddenly, a heavyset (is this detail necessary? read on and you'll know why i tag her ;P) lady entered the clinic. all jaws dropped when we saw her swollen eyes. man they were so bulgely huge! i was exchanging notes with my hubby. allergic reaction? did she hit a cabinet or something? her eyes were so swollen that it seemed she can only gain her vision through a slit gap of her eyes. i finally figured out that she was having a contagious eye disease. i quickly whispered to my kids not to look at her eyes. she was seating about 10 feet from us.

but what caught my attention was her behaviour. she seemed so jovial. rather than wearing eye shades and avoiding eyes contact, she was laughing and joking with her rombongan of family. beaming proudly at everybody and what annoyed me the most was when her mum or sister took her pic from a handset (maybe as a proof to her employer). she posed with a wide smile, making a peace sign with her fingers and giggled. luckily we were called in by the nurse before we could tambah dosa mengumpat ;P.

afterwards we went home. i snuggled on my usual spot in the office corner (on the lantai la.. flat on my stomach ^_^). suddenly i felt something came out from my eyes. haa?? taik mata at night? i just wiped it off and continued working. but the soft mukus kept popping out and it's so annoying. finally i got up and check my eyes out. warrrgghhhhhhhhhh!! it's positive! i was infected by the disease too! i screamed my lungs out in the bathroom. i have line of errands to be done the next day. how can i drive around in this situation? that night i couldn't cuddle in my hubby's hug as usual. since our usual position (wargghhhh.. kah..kah..) pressured the sored eye. so i had to face away from him and cozily kepit my bolster. hehehehe.. sian lakiku.

the next morning as i expected the 'taik mata' had gotten worst. but only my left eye was affected. after seeing the doctor at a nearby clinic, my eyes seemed fine. so, hehehehe.. as usual la. i skipped the pills and of course the eye cream which i despise so much. ugghhh... the eye cream stung my eyes, not a bit soothing. and it's not like the eye drop which bothers your sight momentarily only. the cream is a mess and i look like an ungroom kitten (for those who never own a cat, kitten usually produces eye wax and mummy cat would groom its kitties by licking them clean). so i guess i asked for it by skipping my meds. huhuhu.. so last night i went to bed again in agony. it bothered my friday nite ;P. the itchiness came back.

this morning i woke up with both of my eyes glued. looking at my reflection in dismay, suddenly i thought about that lady at the clinic again, as if she's smirking at me. her giggles ringing into my ears. wargghhh!! i cursed. i'm so mad at her. she deliberately took the situation for granted. i was thinking, i sat 10 feet away from her for 10 minutes only. my heart goes for a cute family seated just beside her. they looked like new parents with a very cute baby bouncing cheerfully on her daddy's lap. did they get it too? i pray not...

Diverting Attention

Actually I gave up writing when I lost my first blog 4 years ago. It was very frustrating. I cherish every details in it coz it was my sanctuary. Well, back then I was crushed under piles of career loads, mixed emotions and confusions. I was short tempered, aimless and felt something amiss but couldn't put my finger on it. Therefore I found it surprisingly easy to blurt out my frustrations through my writings. I didn't blow out all the frustrations bottled in my gut directly on the screen, but I disguised it with common reports and stories.. the children, my daily highs and lows. It was quit comforting. Well, 3 years later I took a wonderful 180 degrees rotation. God knows how I battled them all; wounded with blood and tears. But what don't kill me, makes me stronger n_n.

Now, never been happier and content, I found myself blogging again. But for the different reason. Working flat on my stomach (i mean literally) most of the time. Nope, not working out, on the contrary I have the privillege of doing my online biz 'meniarap' in front the tv, slumps on the sofa or rolls on my bed (if my lazy mode is on ^^). I call it my mini retirement; a paradigm shift from my hectic accounting career of 10 years. 50% of my time devoted to my loyal laptop, 20% running biz errands and 30% cuddling with my family. Time flies by in a blink. Arisya is now 11, already 5 inches shorter than me. My god she already fits in my shoes (again literally ^_^). Arianna has lost half of her baby teeth. Outgrowing her garments every single month. She claims that she already needed a bra ;D. Well she got a point there. Her love for food is the main contributor (I pray not due to her drinking my cocoa collagen sneakingly when I look away ^^). Eventhough I hate it, I have to control her diet especially fasting month is around the corner. It would be heart-breaking to see her starving so I better prepare her for the ordeal n_n. Really.. how time flies. So it's a good thing to cut out another 5% for blogging again. Should keep me from drowning in my biz too much.

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